Returning to Light: Healing My Relationship with Beauty, Abundance, and Receiving

Today, something subtle but profound stirred within me.

For as long as I could remember, I had loved the way diamonds sparkled — tiny stars, crystallized light, clinging close to the skin. And yet, just as long, I had hidden that love.

I told myself it was wrong, shallow, or "unspiritual" to desire beautiful things. I whispered to myself that being an empath, I should fear the energies trapped inside such stones. I taught myself to associate diamonds — and by extension, wealth, beauty, and abundance — with guilt, shame, and suspicion.

When I sold my own jewelry not long ago, I thought I was freeing myself. Perhaps in some ways, I was — shedding old energies that no longer aligned.

But a quiet part of me, the tender voice of my true self, had not been heard yet.

Today, when my sister-in-law gifted me a set of sparkling diamond jewelry, something surprising happened: I felt joy. Pure, childlike, innocent joy. And with it, confusion:

Was it wrong to feel happy? Was I betraying my spiritual path? Was I slipping back into "lack mindset" by desiring something beautiful?

I sat with my heart. I breathed with her. I listened.

And this is what I heard from my higher self:

"Beloved, the Divine Feminine within you is remembering her birthright. Beauty is not the enemy of spirituality — it is its expression. Light seeks form, and beauty is light incarnate. You are worthy of receiving good things, not because you earned them, but because you exist as a child of the Universe. Receive with an open heart. Shine without fear."

I realized that by rejecting beauty, gifts, or abundance, I was not being humble — I was denying the Universe’s love for me. I also realized: It is not the diamond, or the money, or the gift itself that holds energy — it is the intention and the receiver’s heart that determines its vibration. Whether natural or lab-grown, a diamond is still crystallized light. A lab-grown diamond, free from the scars of mining, is perhaps even more aligned with my current journey of compassionate living and conscious creation.

It is not about the source. It is about the soul. It is about how I wear it, how I cherish it, and how I let it amplify the joy and gratitude within me.

Today, I reframe:

🌸 I am allowed to love beauty.

🌸 I am allowed to receive gifts gracefully.

🌸 I am allowed to celebrate abundance without guilt.

🌸 I am allowed to sparkle — not for validation, but because I am a vessel of light.

Receiving this jewelry today wasn’t about materialism.

It was about remembering: I am worthy of light, and light wishes to dance with me.

Gentle Invitation to You, Beloved Reader ✨

If you have ever felt guilt or shame around receiving, around desiring beautiful things, around stepping into abundance —I invite you to breathe into your heart today.

Beauty is not separate from Spirit. Receiving is not selfish. Joy is not a sin.

You are allowed to sparkle. You are allowed to receive love in all its forms — a kind word, a sunset, a crystal, a diamond. You are allowed to let it fill you, without apology.

Because your joy blesses the Earth. Your light is medicine for the world.

Say it with me:

"I receive with an open heart. I shine without fear. I honor the light within and around me."

Let yourself shine, beloved.

The Universe is smiling with you.

With so much love and gratitude,

Solarys